Letter from Aura.. this time I just published what I received :) didn't put anything extra for story telling..
Love – a word made up of two consonants and two vowels. Fifty – Fifty! Equal distribution of alphabets. I never asked “What is Love?” I never asked “ If you are mine, if you would always remain to me. Not once, nor again and again. I believed, I depended, I hid, time came when I got scared of
I am Aura. I am here to tell my story in my words now. I
fell in love, some body used it fiercely right.. Falling in love, lost in love,
helpless and mad in love, there could never be a feeling in world that made me
feel so empty still so fulfilled. The day I saw you in office, I knew there is
a connection between you and me. I never felt so comfortable with anyone else. When
we started sharing our tea, when I started half of my lunch box secretively for
you in the fridge; I knew something was happening. I could feel it with my
entire being. I was in fear, I was in tears, I was getting ripped inside, and
wasn’t able to say a word. When you came to my desk, just to ask about your
colleague, my heart pounded, I told you silently – hold me, just hold me tight
close to your heart, but I never asked, what is love, what that meant to you.
I was riding back to home, you stopped your car, said hi to
me; my heart pounded again, I looked inside, there were flowers in your car, I felt
jealous, but I didn’t ask, what is love? I believed, I depended, I cried. You
came sudden in my life, I wasn’t prepared for it, but I could never be prepared
to fall on the ground. I waited, I believed, I chirped into joy, I screamed
into fear. My sorrows, my tears, were giving me happiness.
Next day you asked
me out for photography. I ignored. I knew it was pain, if I see you smiling
with me, if I sit close to you, I would shiver, I would never be back to my
senses again. My pillow got wet again and again, and my roomies got tired to
make me smile just once. I couldn’t smile; I laughed, I danced, I went out in
rain, to feel each drop of water rolling on my cheek, deep down in my skin, it
was driest, rain came singing into my ears, It was madness, it was blissful.
You talked to your family, you convinced everyone, we were
getting married. But those flowers in your car couldn’t leave my memories. I was
afraid, but I believed, I depended. I was crazy and sinking deep. You left for
abroad, leaving everything behind;
I wanted to ask, what is love for you, was it love that kept those flowers in your car, or it wasn’t? or when our hearts sang together in rhythm, that was love. I am lost, I am in tears, I am empty, this night is short, and thoughts are many. wouldn’t I ask, I stand still, what is love, how long should I wait to have you all mine, give you all mine. I believe, I depend, I love!
You picked me in the afternoon, I didn’t ask, why couldn’t
you have lunch with me? i knew that was not for me. I felt you wanted to hold
my hand, but couldn’t ask for it. Neither had I said a word. It was our hearts;
those were talking, beating in rhythm. Words took a back step. We didn’t talk
anything but to feel each other’s presence, sitting so close to each other. I left suddenly with an excuse, you were sad,
angry, and restive, and you couldn’t say a word. I didn’t speak to you in
office, I didn’t look into your eyes those were seeking answers. I was afraid,
was it a dream, you were mine at that moment, my weak fearful heart was asking
me, how should I love you, will you remain to me. Tears rolled, each moment that
passed by, was edgy, I still didn’t ask, what is love, how long should I wait
for you, should I love you. I kept on talking to myself, how long should I wait,
for you to hold me once, and forever.
You talked to your family, you convinced everyone, we were
getting married. But those flowers in your car couldn’t leave my memories. I was
afraid, but I believed, I depended. I was crazy and sinking deep. You left for
abroad, leaving everything behind;I wanted to ask, what is love for you, was it love that kept those flowers in your car, or it wasn’t? or when our hearts sang together in rhythm, that was love. I am lost, I am in tears, I am empty, this night is short, and thoughts are many. wouldn’t I ask, I stand still, what is love, how long should I wait to have you all mine, give you all mine. I believe, I depend, I love!
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